one of those days...

it's been one of those days. i have 2 posts (half) written that i've never published, yet i still can't seem to spit out what i want to say today.
it's been a good day. a contemplative one....
this morning, two of my friends had their third wedding event after tying the knot in Utah and then having a reception in Australia. it was great to stand with them as they celebrated their covenant with each other and God once again.
not surprisingly, their marriage causes me to wonder if a white dress, beautiful flowers, and beaming groom are in my future. this has actually been a major issue in the "learning to trust God" phase of my life, lately. it's funny (but not really...) how i can trust Him with most anything else, but i don't seem to think that He can handle this area. i've been told that if God has placed the desire to marry in your heart, then He won't not have you fall in love, but life has been teaching me that it just isn't that simple and straightforward. relationships are not logical. and this is hard for my "a+b=c" mind to grasp. really. sometimes i wish that they made sense like that, but then i realize that they just wouldn't be as beautiful and often miraculous if they were always predictable. sigh...this doesn't make it any easier, though...

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD"
Psalm 27:14