waiting...

as i sit at my desk waiting for my accounting to "verify its integrity" before i head off for the night, i have a moment to ponder life.
it's been good. another full week. something to do, someplace to be every night.
Monday= actually a coveted "stayathome" night
Tuesday= Chili Wagon
Wednesday= Small group
Thursday= *Aquafit* (new addition to the list)
Friday= going to a baby shower at church
so, i fill my nights with things -not to mention working long hours every day,- but do i actually enjoy them? do i receive life from them? or are they just other things to make me feel busy, to help me feel like i am finally investing and fitting into this place i call home?
hmmm...makes me think.
am i leaving enough time for me to be re-energized, to just breathe?
weeks just seem to fill up so fast when you get older. i remember when i was younger, thinking that i had all the time in the world and that it was taking forever for me to get older. time seems to be something that just slips through your fingers, something that you can never have back. am i using it wisely? am i giving enough or too much? what about what's best for me?
oh, balance. i need it to be sane. and i don't have it.
that must mean that i'm going crazy...
well, my computer is done doing its thing.
now i just have to figure out the answers to all of these questions...