collide.

that is what my life and anything to do with it did today. collide. all of my insecurities, fears, frustrations, thoughts, and questions converged into one sloppy mess of tears and angst, with perhaps a dash of bitterness, and it came crashing through the self-constructed walls of my heart, tumbling out of my mouth to my parents on the phone today. oh parents. i thank God for you and your timely beingthereforme in my hour of need.
"so, what does this collision look like?" you ask. well, this week (actually, the next 10 days) i will be taking on the role of hosting in the Mission Adventure program that YWAM runs in the summer. and this involves me facing many of the said issues straight on. and that scares me. alot. but i know that this is where i need to be in my relationship with God right now. trusting fully in Him because i can't in myself. it should be interesting.
so, pray for me. if you think of me during your day. right now, as you read this blog. please, pray for me. it means so much to me.
and i trust that i will be better for this. i anticipate discomfort and pain, but also newfound growth and strength as these weak, unused muscles are torn and healed, torn and healed, again and again. God will provide. and i'm excited to see Him do so in my empty self in this upcoming 10 days.